Malatesa threw out the idea of writing a list of 13 things to consider when converting from Christianity to Paganism. I compiled my top 13 things that influenced me on my own journey (which comprised of nearly 4 years). This is very personal to me, but hopefully will resonate with a few of you, too. Also, cred to Witch Ways and Wares, who commented that the number one consideration should be YOU.
13. How does the Bible make you feel? (For me, towards the end of my time in Christianity, I started noticing some really problematic parts of the bible. I mean, obviously they had alwasys been there, but they started really bothering me. Looking back, that was sort of the beginning of the end.)
12. Do you feel in alignment with the Christian community in general? (I found myself making excuses for beliefs and attitudes that were popular among Christians, but that didn't resonate with me personally. I didn't really agree, but I still felt like it was my identity, so I wanted to understand and justify.)
11. Have you found a worship community that feeds your soul? (Are you leaving your worship feeling renewed, refreshed, and ready to serve the world?)
10. Do you have questions that Christianity can't quite answer?
9. Have you experienced spiritual experiences that do not fit in with the Christian worldview? (An example of this for me was some expeiences with fairies.)
8. Is it physically and emotionally safe for you to openly embrace paganism? (I was well into adulthood when I converted. So despite it being awkward with my conservative Christian family, I was living independently and knew that I would be just fine even if they chose to disown me. They did not choose that. I am lucky to have parents who cringe at my beliefs, yet love and embrace me as a person. And in fairness, I cringe at their beliefs, too.)
7. Do you believe that your access to divinity must come *through* another person?
6. Have you noticed that you have spiritual gifts that don't quite fit into the Christian worldview?
5. Are you ready to make your own discoveries about magic, the supernatural, and the divine? (One of my biggest draws to paganism is the openness to finding my own path.)
4. Do you feel drawn to ancient gods and godesses?
3. Do you find wisdom in a variety of places, from ancient texts to modern philosophies?
2. Are you okay with not knowing everything? (One of the hardest things about leaving was losing my complete and utter confidence that I KNEW how the world worked and what would happen after death. I have learned to embrace the unknown in a beautiful way.)
1. How do *you* feel? Where are you feeling led? When you envision your future self, where do you see yourself feeling like their highest self?